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I shall add details tomorrow. For starters this is my current alliances on this tribe

#Maxty - Misty and I.
A duo of Katie and I.
A trio of Katie, Misty and I tentatively titled #premergealliance
A proposed 5-person alliance of Katie, Misty, BJ, Alexis and I.

Not bad for a night's work.

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Max Dawson

Like I tried to bring up the vote with Sierra 

And she named Pete and Alexis as people she wouldn't want to vote 

And she seemed indifferent to Chase 

misty.giles 

Well even if Sierra doesn't vote Chase, Pete probably would. 

Max Dawson

What makes you say that? 

misty.giles 

I'm not too sure that Pete is good with Chase, but I don't know that for sure 

but Pete was following my lead in the challegne 

so I'm assuming that he'll follow my lead in the voting

LOLWUT. I had no idea how to respond to that. Have I been away from ORGs too long? Or maybe she didn't mean it in a literal sense. But OMG if she did. That is so hysterical. 

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Update time. Quite a bit has happened so this might be a little long and rambly. Bear with me as I narrate.

So as per my previous post, I was and still am working with Katie and Misty mainly. I hadn't had the time to converse with anyone else for the whole of yesterday. But I wa quite excited about the first IC. Usually, I perform well in the tribal phase at challenges and such so I was looking forward to it. Well, the start of the IC clashed with some very unexpected RL stuff. And the nature of it was such that if I wasn't 100% focused on it, I was of no use. I relied on Sierra to tell me what to do. Which didn't go very well since she messed up in reading the rules. As did a few people from the other tribe, apparently. I was, for all intents and purposes, a complete flop in that challenge. I saw myself as the reason we lost. I am not sure if that was truly the case but I felt terrible for being such a complete failure in that challenge.

I expressed this sentiment to Sierra and Katie. Mostly to garner sympathy and find a way to save my ass because, at the time, I felt in jeopardy. Both of them assured me I have nothing to worry about. Katie I have a very good relation with, I feel, and I am aligned with her. So her I trusted. But as it turns out, and I do not know the reason why, Sierra likes me as well. I would say I have had decent chats with her. But when I bring up tribal she tells me, in no uncertain ways, that I am one of the people she wouldn't vote against. The other 2 were Pete and I think BJ but I can't remember for sure and I am too lazy to go check chat logs. This, while odd, makes me feel a little better. So it looks like she is leaning towards a Chase vote. And Chase is the name I heard from Katie as well. Sounds like I am in the clear for the first tribal.

Later Misty comes back on. And she finally makes our alliance group chat. This includes Misty, Katie, Alexis and I. We are called the "Superfangirls". My suggestion. Not all that great a name but it will do for now. The thing that is weird to me, is that this alliance feels very forced and put together. I mean, I individually like Katie and Misty. I do not have any sort of rapport with Alexis but I trust the other 2 girls. The issue is I feel so much awkwardness in this chat. Its palpable. I hate group chats as it is. But this is just too weird.

So on the day of the vote, I finally have a good conversation with Pete. He is a very chill guy. And to my pleasant surprise he tells me he has heard good things about me from Sierra. Which, again, I am really not too certain why exactly Sierra likes me. My guess is that it is because I was quite open with her about tribal talk. Mainly stemming from the fact that I myself was nervous as heck. And she says stuff about how the others do not talk to her as much. So Pete and I have a good talk. We go over the vote being Chase. And that seems to be a done deal at this point. Then Pete throws the idea of Pete, Sierra and I working together. Which I of course agree to. Call me crazy but this actually feels a little more organic than the Superfangirls. Which is weird because on an individual level, my favorite on this tribe is I would say Katie and/or Misty. But as a group I think this potential trio of Sierra, Pete and I is more fluid and feels more comfortable. Its quite a puzzling conundrum in my head and I need to figure it out soon. I bring this up with Sierra and she seems excited as well. She mentions liking Alexis too. I bring up that I haven't had much contact with Alexis but I have talked to Misty and Katie more. She says how Misty hasn't opened up strategically to Sierra but she likes Misty on a personal level. 

My talk with BJ was an extremely short one. He said that he had to work but he sent in his Chase vote. I have no option but to take what he says at face value atm.

One of the things that I wanted to do in this game is stay UTR. I have never quite played a UTR game. Not for a lack of trying. And based on the events of this morning I do not think I will be successfully able to play UTR. And so I am shifting my focus on another approach that I have wanted to try for a while. Which is a successful and effective cross-tribal alliance. I was initially bummed out that I would not be on the same tribe as Eddie or Danielle. But they are both prime contenders for this potentially secret alliance that I want to make work. I enjoy my chats with both of them. I enjoy them more than I do with some of my own tribe mates. 

Eddie touched base with me first to see how I was holding up. I let him know that I think I will be alright and the votes are headed in the direction of Chase. He also told me he got the ball rolling on me getting the idol clue. I thanked him of course but I do not know if I actually wanted that. It puts an unnecessary target on my back and I need to think of a way to diffuse it. My first thought is of course to just share whatever the clue is publicly with my entire tribe. Or I could do it in private with everyone. Not sure how to proceed on that front yet. But for now I am gonna keep working on my bond with Eddie. he is very easy to talk to which always helps.

My talk with Danielle today felt really flat tbh. I have had such good chats with her before that this just paled in comparison. When I woke up this morning feeling safe I was so excited to tell Danielle everything. But I got such distant vibes that it made me sad and  I didn't tell her anything at all besides Chase leaving and the reason being him not talking to people. She told me some things how she doesn't like Chase being cocky in the group chats and how she thinks Misty and Katie don't like her based on what they say in the group chat. I pay 0 attention to the group chat. I have no desires to ever participate in there. So I do not know what she is talking about but I tried consoling her and telling her I will look out for what Misty and Katie say about her. She misinterpreted this I think. The whole conversation just fell flat and I hope that doesn't remain the case in the future because I do still like Danielle a lot.

All in all, it has been a mostly positive day for me. Chase looks to be on his way out. I have a few options as far as allies go. And it looks like I will be getting an idol clue. Good day so far. 

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Today was a rather boring and slow day. No talks with Misty, BJ, Eddie at all. Very brief and meaningless ones with Sierra, Alexis and Katie. 

Pete is great. He is a delight to talk to and is actually quickly becoming my favorite on this tribe. We talked about a lof random non-game stuff today. Very pleasant chap.

The only significant thing that I learned today came from Danielle. Danielle is awesome in bursts. I feel very close to her. I hope she feels the same way. So she tells me that after a long absence, Stephen finally came online and started spreading word that Eddie was leaking tribal dynamics of Vahine to Sierra and tried to paint Eddie as an untrustworthy sneak. This is quite surprising for a couple reasons. Eddie and I talk quite a bit. He hasn't told me much besides Stephen being first boot when they lose. Danielle said that is pretty much what he told Sierra as well. I need to keep a watch over this potential relationship between Eddie and Sierra. For the moment it isn't too much of a worry. Daneille said no one on Vahine took Stephen very seriously either. I am glad Danielle shared this with me. Does make me trust her a little more.

I think even if we lose, which we could -  I flopped really badly on the hard slider , I should be fine. I think BJ will be targeted. Which is A-OK by me. He is the only one I don;t have some kind of an alliance with. 

That's all for tonight. See you tomorrow.

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Talking about Pete's cat.

Pete  

Navi !  

she's so cute

I chuckled <3

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I haven't confessed in a while.  So here is something that happened.

When we won the challenge, there was a lot of drama regarding who we should give the idol clue to. Sierra was ADAMANT it should go to Stephen since Stephen is very clearly (apparently) on the bottom. Apparently Eddie talked to her and spilled secrets of the dynamics of the tribe? I didn't at any point mention to anyone that I talk to both Eddie and Danielle and I already knew this. But Sierra was sketched out by Eddie and wanted to save Stephen. She REALLY campaigned. BJ noticed this and agreed that we should give it to neither Eddie nor Stephen (my suggestion) and rather go for someone neutral. I, of course, was talking to Danielle all this time and she said she would like to get the clue. Either her or Sarah. So I was working to casually bring up that we should random.org it. Then I could rig it to make sure Danielle won. Took me SIX tires LOL. And Abi showed up as first thrice in those 6 tries. WOW. So I made sure Danielle woul get the clue. The beauty of this is BJ came with a good idea that we shouldn't let Danielle know it was randomized (lol) and that we chose her in hopes that she would share the clue and we could work together. BJ would talk to her and then he would share the clue with us all. PERFECT. Keeps my relationship with Danielle hidden. I don't care too much that someone else could find the idol before me. IDC that much about idols tbh. What I care about is that I am making steady, decent progress in the game with allies both at my side and on the other tribe. 

So relationships wise, I would say I am closest to Pete on this tribe. He and I talk a lot. I talk to him more than everyone else combined at this point. My talks with Misty, Katie have all but stopped. That could be a result of this challenge being 48 hours and us winning the previous one. BJ and I talked just a little during the idol clue drama. Sierra and I actually talked  a fair bit. But I would say it was a very dry exchange and nothing of particular note. My talks with Danielle have been the same very much the same. She gives me info. I give her info. There is a decent enough flow. My last talk with Eddie was a while back but it was a very good one. I do like the guy and trust him to an extent.

Alexis did a fantastic job in coming up with the story. I did what I could to finish up the comic. My GIMP skills are minimal so I hope its passable. Fingers crossed for a win at this point.

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LITERALLY the worst outcome possible to this IC. FML

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Danielle just told me she got the idol by guessing Ami Cusack. DAMN I really wanted that idol Oh well
The target is Darrah. Should be an easy enough vote I think

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This round has been more difficult than it should have been. First off. Really random.org gods?? Abi was the ONE person we wanted out. But she won. 

The evening started with Alexis goofing up and sending Abi  a message meant for me. Sooooo that was funny   So Alexis and Pete were around and we discussed. Settled on Darrah. Misty and Katie showed up and agreed. Pete touched base with Sierra. Poor Sierra had to wake up at 4.00am today. So that was 6 votes. And BJ came online today and was all about Tané unity. I like BJ as a guy. He is fun. So I think Tané is all on board. We are voting Darrah.

My problems have been with Eddie, Darrah, Sarah and to a lesser extent Danielle. Eddie and I's talk was so forced and basically ended on a sour note for me when I wouldn't give him a name but he was expecting it from me and he wouldn't give me a name that I was expecting from him. So I think I need to either repair that bond or actually reconsider and look at Eddie as the threat he is. I have found out that there is truth to the rumors of Eddie talking to a lot of people. But Pete is smitten with Eddie and sigh I don't want to go down that road again. Pete also likes Matty a lot  but to me it is very see through what they are doing. 

Darrah. Boy oh boy oh boy. She approached me and asked me to flip. OOOOOKAY. Then said I will 100% not get 7th place. Proceeded to say that Vahine is split into 2 groups and she could bring me into her group. Gotta say quite a fascinating player. Instead of going the obvious and far more likely to succeed route of self preservation, Darrah went balls to the walls trying to get people to flip. A few issues with this. She makes arguments that contradict each other. She has offered the same proposal to multiple group of people. And Danielle told me she was going to try to get me to flip before she did it LOL. I am so glad to be playing with Danielle. Speaking of.

I was saddened by my talk with Danielle. She said she would have liked for me to flip to Tahine. But that is Survivor suicide. Thats what Kass did. I mean I like Danielle but I am in a good spot over here. Its not going to last, everyone knows that. But for now, its the easiest path that is the best. Occam's razor and all that. I apologized to Danielle today if I came off as rude. I thought I did. Especially after how my talk with Eddie went. She said she wasn't mad but I still feel bad. I like Danielle a lot and want to go deep with her. Probably all the way. So I need to keep working on that bond with her. 

The vote should be a slam dunk. 7-6 Darrah. IDK who they are voting for. Eddie and Danielle both said it wasn't me. I appreciate that sentiment a lot and do thank them for it. I am ready for this round to be over and for Darrah to leave. I hope that is what will happen and there are no surprises. Its been awfully quiet around here so I just want this to be done with and move onto the next one.

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I am p sure I am toast if we lose. I am wayyyyyy overplaying my hand and trying to force an outcome.

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YEPPPPP. There will be rocks as far as I am concerned. Matty is an adamant one. Not even skirting around the issue. Very bold. Silly and naive, but bold. Sarah is a shady one and Eddie is ... IDEK anymore. I miss Pete

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This counts as my very first swap fuck. YAY!!